..Sept. 30th 2014, 5:51 a.m.
5 years ago.
By: JoonJoined: Aug. 21st 2014
This work is for you.
You are a sadist inside and I know you.
I enter bliss and I thought of you.
How much I want to give this to you.
You need this so much more than I do...
Do you realize?
Don't you just hate me?
I enter the bliss...
But I come back.
I'm ditching classes today just because of this work. This is more important. This is more important than anything else in the world. Just because of how much freedom this is giving me. I want to share this with you. I want you to remember this.
You have the eye.
You taught me about bliss so I had to teach myself bliss. Do you know how much pain I had to go through? Do you know how much love I had to learn? For this world?
And you know what?
I don't want the bliss.
I finally found bliss in my life.
I wanted this... I realize now... I wanted this so much more than you did...... so I got it... I got it before I got the eye...
My eye still falters me sometimes you know? I still fall for the same lies sometimes... I can't even act anymore than you do... not now anyway...
I'm only interested in the Night work. More so now obsessed...
You wanted. You wanted this didn't you. The eye for the planet. I know you enjoy this life. I know you enjoy the pain and suffering of this planet. I know you will enjoy the transition. From a distance. I really know you do. That's why you're here. You evil thing.
The aliens are not evil.
I don't want you to come back here.
I want you to come back here.
Don't find bliss.
If you want bliss...
Don't want bliss...
You really really hate us don't you.
Did I say I want the bliss?
We gave suffering to you so you can enjoy it. Deal with it.
I will take it back from you...
I almost wish you'd never written.
I also wish that more people would have talked about you... to have recognized you for what you were.
Not that I could have unless you talked... I was only interested in my bliss...
.......how do I stop you...
How do I make you happy? Do you realize how much I want to make you happy? Should I just give it to you? Should I just show it to you? The destruction of this world?
I had so much hard time making all your unpredictable voices one...... I still do...
I'm glad you're just watching.....
But observance has power too.
What do you see?
I'm redirecting the question. Can't you see? What do YOU see from this world? That's all that matters.......
Me? I don't know. I really don't know... I really don't know myself any more than you do... you were right... you were all right... and you were all wrong at the same time...
All I know is that I love you two. And I love this forum enough to express it here. And I love a few more.
I love the arts of this planet.
...what was I doing...
None of these matter when I enter the bliss. Nothing matters in the bliss. Nothing matters...... not even my family, not even my "friends"... nothing but you two... and the future of the planet...
I'm afraid of the bliss... you shouldn't want bliss, bliss will make you see more clearly. I don't want to see more clearly any more than you do... I know the fear is wrong. But... my body is still afraid... I don't want this intercourse to end too quickly... I'm not done yet... I want to do so much more...
I want to do so much more. It's important to want, Bespus. It's important to want to do so much more.
This world. I really am the voice of this world I realize now. This world wants it too. I see it in the arts. I see it in books and writings. I saw it in the religious texts. I saw it in the hearts of men. I saw it in you.
But there's one that captured me. One that only simulated the end. And did not bring the end. That's what I'm trying to do here, don't you understand? We can only simulate the end. We don't have to have the end. You are the foundation. But I've always wanted the castle.
You possessed me... you two possessed me... the Yang in you possessed me. I'm just so glad... I'm so glad that I finally have just enough strength to find myself and see you for what you are...... will I become stronger until it's too late?...
I want you happy.
Please be happy for once... this is for you. And this for you in me. Please be happy for once...
We are our children as much as you are.
I enjoyed your hate.
...Oct. 2nd 2014, 5:48 a.m.
5 years ago.
By: JoonJoined: Aug. 21st 2014
you guided me..
you never lost your powers...
more into the future
i thought you belonged to the crown
the etherial bliss
and it met black earth
words do not do justice
i had so much fun with technology...
the games.. the dreams that people weave... the lives that humanity wishes to live... the music and the science and the arts... i do not regret seeing all these... i do not regret my fun...
i see the cost for this warmness...
you ground me...
you are bliss
you did not belong to the crown...
now you're warm... in my gut...