Time and Space
Oct. 29th 2014, 11:49 a.m.7 years, 6 months ago. |
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By: Joon
Joined: Aug. 21st 2014Posts: 106 |
This is one last time I will give this knowledge any thought. I don't want to think anymore. ------------------------- The timeline of the Universe is said to converge into many futures. Much depends on the Will of the Source itself. The Akashic record, the mind substance of this universe, contains the many possibilities and paths that the Source wants to walk in. Not even in the Memory of our Oneness do we know what the Universe ultimately wants to become. The futures are decisions yet to be made. But even so there is much that we can know of the futures by becoming one with the source. Many of All's desires simply cannot be changed. But sometimes the futures concerning our own lives diverge into several paths. I've been told that Night Magicians can feel this period once they're in it. And they have a choice. A choice that they can imprint on the Source to decide which path of life to live and experience. And I think I'm in one. On a more scientific note, a research was recently conducted concerning a second dimension of time. That is, time is not linear as we know it but actually a widespread plane of possibilities. Evidence perhaps of the truth of multiple futures. ------------------------- I had a hard time trying to reconcile the book and the Watcher writings. I wish you two could get together and agree for once. Will it occur or will it not? Is the End an ultimately benevolent force or a malevolent one? One thing is very clear to me. The End, should it occur, is not the end of all pain and suffering. Is not the triumph of good over evil. No, it is the beginning of a new hardship. A war for the control of our own Souls that continued underneath will resurface. A cell has defense mechanisms against the viruses. But when a cell is infected beyond measure it will die and multiple viruses will erupt out of it to corrupt other cells. If this cell belongs to an organism, other cells would come to stop this from happening. Possibly by destroying it. In any case, the cell dies. See I've always wondered. Tiamat has ensouled this world the same way we ensouled this body. It is humankind that are the cells and ultimately the brain of Tiamat. I am not saying nature and life in general is not important. Nature and Mother Earth is the ultimate source of vitality for all of us. Mitochondria that sustains the cell if you will. Its destruction has created global warming and the Earth will not allow this sickness to continue. But Earth ultimately survives. The self-healing force of Earth is tremendous. It is impossible for life to be destroyed. In the end, humans can't save trees. Trees will save humankind. The more and more I meditate, the more I understand humankind to be the vessels of our World Soul. We are the ones channeling the Night Spirit to keep Tiamat alive. Along with some other "aliens" on this planet. ----------------- I've been trying to work around this conclusion but I just couldn't. What do I not understand? What have I missed? We humans are the very building blocks of this organism. What are you hiding? What do you not know?... I want to reach a conclusion and be done with my confusion, once and for all. What am I knowing wrong? What have I been taught wrong? Why are you so imprecise in your teachings that I have to go through this myself... I'm so fed up. I'm lazy in my own way but you gotta admit you're so sleazy in critical thinking... Yes. Yes it's important. It's important if it ends up confusing the most important values of what this work is ultimately based on. I am so tired of our hatred of humankind that we try so hard to hide. I am so tired of the self-hatred of Tiamat and of my own. Why is humankind so unhappy in this world? Why are we so afraid of death and life simultaneously? And the more I reach into the heart of this world, in order to heal myself... the more I realize that both of us are so sick. And we're healing each other. And we empower each other through the communion of our own sickness and pain. Nature is no longer a Mother that will cater to your each and every greedy little needs. What do I have to do? Reach coma? Complete isolation? Die? Let the woods kill me? Live? Live like nothing's wrong? Continue with my dreams until humankind comes along to kill them? What am I doing. Where am I going. Are we the cure or the curse. |
The Blue StarOct. 29th 2014, 1:15 p.m.7 years, 6 months ago. |
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By: Joon
Joined: Aug. 21st 2014Posts: 106 |
Ragnarok. The second coming of christ. The Aztec Quetzalcoatl. The Mayan Kukulkan. The Hopi blue star kachina and the Pahana. This is Mithra of the Zoroastrian religion. The so-called good force that will save all benign people and punish the rest. ... I have meditated and studied this intensely. Questioning, forgoing and relearning everything I've been taught. Especially during this period, the end of my purification. Through all this searching I did realize one thing. Mithra is my enemy. So many forces in me want my own destruction. Want it easy. Want a higher force to come and save them from their suffering. So many people want a clear cut good and evil and believe themselves to be on the side of goodness. So many people want false peace. Party on Earth? Kill the rest of humankind and have party on Earth? PARTY ON EARTH? WHAT DO YOU THINK LIFE IS, A PICNIC?? Die. I will not give you what you want. Even in my direst moments, even when I wanted destruction on this planet... when I killed everyone and restored them in my heart a thousand times and once more... Never once was I proud of it. Never was I proud of my hate and fear. Because I know, I've always known, deep down, that the so-called purification will not be the end of my suffering but the beginning. The beginning of an end. The beginning of a real war. A war with the White Brotherhood. What Nirvana. What Heaven. I'm not dead yet. Don't think I'll be killed that easily. I've reached the beginning of Oneness - real Oneness - and I still survive. There are forces in me that completely understand the reason for being on this physical realm. A ground where Souls can experience life in all its myriad colors. A test to our own Courage and Will. The only thing wrong with this planet and myself is its fear of death and love. A love that nurtures the flower of Soul with water and protects them from bugs. Instead of pretending everything is whole and safe and fine under the protection of God or something. While your flower withers away into nothingness. Listen to me so I don't have to kill my Soul. I will live and die following my dreams. What is worse than the death of my own Soul? This body is just a tool. If this sick world kills me than it's a world that doesn't deserve my love. ----------------- We do this not because we're tired. I don't want to die out of pity and comfort. I want to graduate this world with aces and flying colors. Knowing that I've done my best. It's why I took up this work in the first place. Do not take this away from me. I'd rather be killed if it means the destruction of this planet. |
So be itOct. 29th 2014, 1:33 p.m.7 years, 6 months ago. |
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By: Joon
Joined: Aug. 21st 2014Posts: 106 |
The Apocalypse is a future that will wreak havoc to those who believe in it with the wrong mindset. You.. the White Lighters... destroy me and hide behind your doings, pretending to be the saving grace from my physical life. You give me the disease and the bottle of medicine that is really just poison to kill me for good. -------- I do know this. If the End actually does happen... You will not live to create more of yourselves, Pahana. We still rule this place. We will make sure no one wins this game. Ultimately, in the longest run, we will be the ones who have attained the Night Spirit. If we ever die, If we ever die, we will come back to destroy you. This Universe has never once failed in karmic retribution. |